I have a simple question to ask you. Those of you that have followed the Facebook post to read more of my blog...don't. You don't want to tread here. That being said, I ask this question of you all.
I know that some of you are particularly fond of some of our songs...some of those in particular being 'Learning Curve' or 'Project O.' I have a two part question for you...what songs of ours struck a particular chord in you (no pun intended), and why?
I'm not asking this question to boost my or Paolo's egos, but rather because I'm finding myself stuck on a particular song lately, and I want to know why you feel linked to your particular song.
I've been on a big Alice in Chains kick lately, and though I've never been in the throes of a heroin addiction like Layne Staley was, I find a particular affinity for his defeatist bent in the songs that he wrote. The one that I've found myself really identifying with is "Nutshell" (and the Unplugged version of "Down in a Hole"). YouTube has the Alice in Chains Unplugged version of the song (I have the DVD of the whole Unplugged set), and this is the version that really sucked me into the song. I'm not feeling that I'd be "better dead," as he illustrates, but sometimes I feel that although I have this support group around me....I'm still on my own. I'm sure some of you feel this - ultimately, this life is ours to lead, live, and forge. Make your choices wisely, or hide the poor ones well. I'm far from being someone you should take advice from....and part of what attracted me to this song originally was a "misheard lyric" of "Myyyyy....gift of selfish rage" instead of "gift of self is raped" (the original lyric). But...there's a lesson to be learned here. We all have an identity. I've spent a lot of my life being many things to many people, least of which was my true self. I had a face I had to throw on when my mother forced me to continue being Mormon, I had a face I threw on when I got onstage (eased usually by a fair dosage of alcohol, I do have some stage fright). I have many faces, unfortunately. That doesn't mean your experiences with me have been fake. You all know me, some of you only professionally, some of you during the adrenaline rush after I got off stage, some of you intimately. I am, after all, the "good person" most of you see me as. I'm reading much to far into this song and since I've had a few, I'm delving into speculative regions. I've always been emotionally attached to music, and I hope that those of you who decided to check this out have evaluated your attachment to music as well. Thanks for listening, and I welcome any and all comments. Again, if you came here to read this post, and this post only, don't delve further into this blog. Thanks to everyone who has ever been a focuspoint fan.
Yours,
Chris
2 comments:
Piece (Peace) of Mind-I remember when you wrote it and singing it with you in someone's basement. The past two years I've also been feeling like I am fighting losing battles.
It hurts me to read that. I can't say that that song doesn't have a bitter bent to it (most of my songs do). However, I seem to be in a very positive area of my timeline, and I would like to bring you along with it. I think this musical collaboration that you have suggested might bring us both some release...even if it's just the two of us and an acoustic. I always loved your voice and we have a lot of musical similarities. Let me know.
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